The New Me Day 7

A M Weight: 259

Good morning! I was so happy this morning to see the scale below 260 for the first time in a long time. Things are going well as far as my willpower are concerned, but it is still really early in the game and I have a long way to go. Life around here will be crazy until Thursday, and then my real routine can begin.

Well I just put both kids on the bus for the first time. Taylor, being an old pro, jumped on and went to her seat. Dylan looked so small. His lime green and black backpack, which is almost as big as he is, took up my view as he ascended the stairs. The bus driver directed him to a seat in the front and I watched for any spark of fear in his eyes. When his face turned, there was no fear, just excitement. He didn't look towards me, just grinned, ear to ear, at the other children surrounding him. Taylor has always been confidant in herself, but there is still this shyness that has been under the surface. Dylan has confidence seeping out of his pours. He is who he is and fear has never seemed to been a factor. I am so proud of both of them.

Chuck has been gone since Wednesday. Working. I miss him so much I ache. I finally get to go pick him up tomorrow, but it is only for one day and then he his gone again for two. It hardly seems right to me that someone who saves people's lives for a living has to kill themselves to make ends meet. He sees things and does things that I can't even imagine. And I love him for it and thank God everyday for giving my the gift that is him.

Well I'm off the enjoy my quiet house and clean so that I can finally keep ahead of the fray. Be back tomorrow and hopefully I've said goodbye to 260 forever!!!!!!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008