The New Me Day 7

A M Weight: 259

Good morning! I was so happy this morning to see the scale below 260 for the first time in a long time. Things are going well as far as my willpower are concerned, but it is still really early in the game and I have a long way to go. Life around here will be crazy until Thursday, and then my real routine can begin.

Well I just put both kids on the bus for the first time. Taylor, being an old pro, jumped on and went to her seat. Dylan looked so small. His lime green and black backpack, which is almost as big as he is, took up my view as he ascended the stairs. The bus driver directed him to a seat in the front and I watched for any spark of fear in his eyes. When his face turned, there was no fear, just excitement. He didn't look towards me, just grinned, ear to ear, at the other children surrounding him. Taylor has always been confidant in herself, but there is still this shyness that has been under the surface. Dylan has confidence seeping out of his pours. He is who he is and fear has never seemed to been a factor. I am so proud of both of them.

Chuck has been gone since Wednesday. Working. I miss him so much I ache. I finally get to go pick him up tomorrow, but it is only for one day and then he his gone again for two. It hardly seems right to me that someone who saves people's lives for a living has to kill themselves to make ends meet. He sees things and does things that I can't even imagine. And I love him for it and thank God everyday for giving my the gift that is him.

Well I'm off the enjoy my quiet house and clean so that I can finally keep ahead of the fray. Be back tomorrow and hopefully I've said goodbye to 260 forever!!!!!!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

The New Me Day 6

A M Weight: 260

Well this weekend was kind of crazy and I didn't have anytime to update the blog. Things are going pretty well. We have had a small health problem with Dylan that I'm waiting to hear back on, and both kids are now in school. I was sad to leave Dylan today at school, but happy for him and for me. It will be great for him to make friends and be in school, and it was nice to have 3 hours today to just do what I needed without interruptions.

The changing seasons is so apparent today. It is hot, but the light is just different. I love the fall. the colors, and all the holidays are starting. Yeah for fall!!!!!

Monday, September 8, 2008

The New Me Day 3

Weight in the AM: 260

Well yesterday went pretty well. We had a lot of stress with Dylan's ultrasound and results, but I didn't eat my way through the night. I get to go shopping today and get the "right" foods in the house. Well as much as the money will stretch that is.

Dylan starts school on Monday, so my exercise schedule will start then. I still need to drink more water though. Even if no one reads this, it is nice to feel like I am not in this alone. And who know maybe I can help someone else feel the same way!

Friday, September 5, 2008

Movie Recommendations of the Week

Here are my movie recommendations of the week:

All Ages:

"National Velvet"
1944

This movie is such an inspirational film, especially if you have daughters. It shows that the only limitations in live are the ones you set on yourself. Elizabeth Taylor is adorable and you are rooting for her right along with Mickey Rooney.

Ages 10+:

"The Bad News Bears"
1976

Walter Matthau, Tatum O'Neal and Jackie Earle Haley star this classic comedy that is a must see for any child or parent involved in sports. It is very funny. The children in the film do use some profanity and there are a few racial slurs, but depending on your personal household, most kids 10 + can handle it. The Coach also drinks, but it is not glamorized at all.

Ages 15+:

"The Fog"
1980

It is getting that time of year when I am in the mood for a scary movie, and this John Carpenter film is just the thing. Don't watch the remake, and if you already have, erase is from your mind. The original is creepy and it is from a horror master. You will never go out into a foggy morning again without wondering, "What's in the fog?"

Adults:

"Pan's Labyrinth"
2006

The fantasy elements of this beautifully frightening film are not the scariest part, but the brutality of the human villain that gives you chills. Through fantasy, director Guillermo del Toro, tries to give reason to war and the death of innocence. Watch this with the subtitle, not dubbed. You would do it an inservice to watch the dubbed version. Beautiful, frightening and leaves you hoping that maybe there is a point to the unimaginable pain and violence in the world and that it is not just evil and pointless.

I hope that you enjoy them.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

The New Me Day 2

AM weight 260.

Yesterday went pretty well. I kept myself busy. That is a big thing for me. If I have a project, something to do, I don't snack. I do need to drink more water. I had too much soda yesterday. Diet of course, but still too much.

Dylan did so well yesterday at his assessment to start school. He is above grade level in all skills except his coordination. My fault I guess because he is a lefty and I had no idea how to teach him things like using scissors and writing. He will catch on quick though.

Taylor's first day of school went great. She loves her new teacher. I met him and he seems really nice and great with the kids.

This is a stressful day today though, I have to take Dylan into the hospital for an ultrasound. When I took him in for his physical, the doctor couldn't find one of his testicles. Hopefully it is just hiding somewhere, but he might have to have surgery. So please any who read, sent happy thoughts and prayers our way. I really appreciate it.

Talk to you all later.

The New Me Day 1

Well here we go. Day one of changing my life. Here are my honest facts:

Weight this A.M. 263lbs

My goal is to eventually be half of this weight. I am starting a new eating plan, thank you Raquel, but it can't start until the end of the week, due to bank account restrictions. So for now, I will just limit my calories and start to move.

Dylan starts school on Monday, so my exercise routine will start then also. This week I am focusing on finishing up a few project and then I can concentrate on the project that is ME!

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Start of Something Good!

Hello all!

Well here we are, another summer has come to a close. Taylor starts school tomorrow and Dylan on Monday. I am ready for a change in my life. I went to the doctor today and talked about getting started on a weight loss plan. He tells me I qualify for weight loss surgery, but that is an avenue of last resort. So I will be documenting my progress on this blog. I need to be accountable to someone other than myself. And I need your help.

Every morning I will post my weight for that morning and I'll tell you how things are going during the day. Join me, if you like and comment on your progress and mine. I would love feedback and will need the encouragement. I look forward to being released from all the weight I have been carrying for far too long. I will not spend another year feeling this way! This is the best birthday present I could give myself.

Thanks in advance for any help you can throw my way!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008